It is so amazing that some people are in our lives for the better. I mean we all have those people that are there and slowly fade away. Like the people you see in the store whom you know you went to middle school with but, you shy away from saying "Hey, I remmeber you we went to _______ together". We all have those. We also all have those who are in our lives to teach us things, though at the time and maybe for years after we never catch on until one day it hits us.
Then there are the people in our lives who we meet, fall in love with, and marry, who we figure out one day that this person though we have taken our vows and planne dour lives together really is someone who belongs in your life. My wife, my beautiful, beautiful wife got this recognition from me today. I drive 30 - 45 minutes to work. On this day I did nothing but listen to a song that reminded me of her, on repeat the whole way. A song by someone I would never listen to on my own. A genre I pretty much despise. It wasn't even the song really, it was more of the fact that she has a connection with this song. Though it is only the chorus, this song brings tears to my eyes.
Because I have decided that personal need if second only to my family and third in the line of peopel I love. I spent many years of my life hating everything and everyone in it, only to fall head over heels for someone over 4 years ago. It is funny people say they fall out of love, or that "things are differant". I think these people are in it for the wrong reasons. Our relationship started out rough. Our life together has never been perfect. Regardless, we are together and I learn more about her everyday. She is the one I will continue to adore forever. We all have our moments and our pasts loves, and lives but, what really matters is where we are right now and who we are with. It kills me to be away from my wife and daughter. They are that center I needed to find myself. I spent so many years feeling empty, trying to find myself. Who would have known Who I am was in Colorado, wanting me to complete her. She will tell you she never wanted to be married or have children. But the light in her eyes and the smile she bares when our daughter does something she learned, is beyond explanation, as is my love for her... I don't know if you will ever see this Jo and Eleanore, but I love you both with all of my heart...
Love,
Daddy
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