the day after

Well today is the day after Thanksgiving. A time when we remember how much we ate and how much more we drank than we should have. I certainly did. There isn't much going on today but some cleaning I have to do. So nothing to report.

haha...

Ha ha... today is my last day of work for 6 days... In the words of Britany Spears "Happy Turkey day ya'll"
Well even though it is my last day I am a bit hastened. I have to be in the Floater/Rover position when we return to work on the 1st. This means more enteractment with "He with whom I hate". I think it will be ok, but I have a lot of anxiety over it lol... we will just have to see how it goes when it happens. Seems he is off most of the month anyways so maybe we can make this an ok thing. We will once again see.

Well Jo is trying to get some General studies soon. She wants to do so, so that she can have her Associates in general studies before we move to Nashville in a few years... so she is gonna start this soon I hope. She wants a Psycology degree... bachleor's but pref. Masters. I plan on having 3 certifications by that time also... Soon I can take my A+ exam... then start on my Network+, and eventually my Security+ or MCDT.
Which will hopefully land me a kick ass job there in the great ole' south.

Well I am excited about being home for 6 days. I know I spent a lot of time at home being sick/hurt whatever, but man it seems i have been working alot. Even though things seem better here at work I still don't want to be here. This place is not me anymore. It has been a decent place to work and I have made a good salary but I can not wait till it is time to move on. This is technically the longest jon I have ever had so it has been a good experience in that aspect but I thikn I am done. Don't get me wrong I am not gonna just leave here, but I do plan on bettering myself when we move. This will be the last physical labor job I get. You can count on that.

Well Jo and Eleanore, and Mamie are in Summit today getting some last items for Thanksgiving. So, I sit here bored pounding away on my keyboard and doing redundant checks on equipment. But I had better leave this be for now. Wish me luck for my triumphant return on the 1st. Though I will blog before then...

En.Ki

11/21/09...

So, here I am again bored as hell at work... I am bored because shit just ogt up and running so there isn't much to do as of yet. I have today and 3 more days then I am on longchange aka 6 days off. There isn't much to talk about... nothing much has been going on. But I try to make an effort to post when I can regardless of what... Gotta do my journal thing. Well maybe I will update more later...

the last nightshift... well for now

Well, as I sit here at work I feel relieved that this is the last night shift for awhile. Though it has only been 2 nights it is good to know I have 4 days shifts (starting Saturday) then back to long change (6days off). All in all I can't beat my job. I work 15 days a month and that's it. They are spread out a bit but i get alot of days off. Things here have calmed themselves to the point I come here, work , then go home with none of it on my chest. I know this doesn't make for a good ranting blog but it does make life a bit easier.

There has been so much change lately. From a new car, to just peacefulness all around. I can't wait till I have long change to be with my family. I really hate not being there for Noir. She needs her space as well as
I do, but it is so great to be around her. She always has a mile on her face. Unless she is in trouble lol.
Jo is wonderful. We have had some recent issues but I think they are over with now. I have been trying to put forth a better effort to show my concern about what is going on with her. So I think things are calming. At least for now. Well I had best go...

En.Ki

Resurrection (beyond loving you){old}

in time we shall be born again


in retrospect will I be there holding your hand

will the shade of what we used to be

be there to tell us the part

will we bare remenants of... we



crying

this newborn

the night of tales

as we desend upon our rose

the thorns we must bare

a pain we must...



in time we shall be born again

in respect will I be there

will the heart of what we used to be

be there to show us our part

will we bare the reminders of... us



dying

this time of sand

the tales of night

as we descend upon our thorne

the thorns we must bare

a pain we must share



tell me of your memories

as I pretend to never know

this bleeding head of unforgiving

this lie I can't stand

tell me of your daydreams

of how we used to be

in time we shall be born again

baring fruit for this tree...



may we...

Beyond... (old)

carry me on


beyond the waves

beyond the stars

relive the pain of yesterday

as I begin to swell again

the bending of the rain to spare me

the lifeless me

the timeless me



I carry on the ways

to send the moon it's faults

I end up staring

at crators that I dug myself

holes that hold my cries

filling my eyes...

with each syllable...

I die.



beyond the thoughts

of nothing left

swelling carries a different breathe

then I

then I feel



just then

I soak it up

the demon in my head

this shallow cup

begins to spill

none of this is real

Sleep to Dream (old)

words bury their face here


they dig holes as deep as I

they hide from eyes

they sings lullabies

they speak me to sleep



in my heart of hearts

in the depths of my soul

carelessly we show our faces

when all we wanted was

so alone



bleed my eyes

let the day go astray

sift through the labyrinth

as we find our way

as we begin to fade

singing

and crying our way home



why does this end

the courage I feel

why does it matter

the day of today

sing your solemn lullaby

so I may drift away



words they bury their face here

they dig holes as deep as I

they hide from eyes

they sing lullabies

they speak me to sleep

you whisper me to dreams...



sleep well my love...